head spin and heart ache (2010-08-30 - 6:40 p.m.)

Fuck idk what to do things are getting complicated, I left teddy almost two months ago. He has gotten a job (altho may have lost it), he is inrolled in school, and is trying daspretly hard to get me back. For a long time I blocked him out I closed off my heart to him and turned away. As I did this me and bobby started hanging out a lot and one day he kissed me we were both a little drunk and I pushed away, because it was my friend bobby and that was weird to me. Well as time past me and bobby started getting feelings for each other and under the great influence of liq we kissed again only this time it lead to more. Me and bobby have been talking a lot about dating and he understainds that it is to soon for me. He really reaspects me and understainds that I am in a hard spot he takes me out makes me laugh and when im around him I don't feel like I need to get fucked up im am content.
But the last outbreak show we all went to teddy saw bobby kiss me and things got a lot more complicated I told him I was done and wanted to see bobby and I broke his heart... then the next night all the way to today I just feel like im making a mistake that I shoulkd give him another chance. That after I fucked with mat I changed and I thiink this is that point for him and who am I not to give him that chance. I always say us being together and getting married and him becoming the man I want him to but then things got havey and i peaced. Idk what to do I wish someone would tell me